Thank you for telling me those things, they make me want to get to know you better! To me, it seems that there are alot of close-minded people out there, who, when they find out something or notice something unusual, or waaaay out of their box, they get all upset and accusing and so forth. Like...when someone writes a yaoi fic....there is probably one person who'll rant about wanting that character for themselves and how they aren't gay, blah blah blah, you know? That really irks me...

It's interesting, because it makes me sick to my tummy sometimes to watch how some certain people behave and act like they do... -sigh- But that cannot be helped, can it? One person can't change many people with out doing something so drastic....but even then you can't save them all, eh?

I haven't written any poetry lately...but I used to. Life has gotten really hectic...but I know I need to vent somehow...And release all of my feelings so I'll feel better...So I won't be cranky all the time...-laughs-

Sorry for rambling....

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I will carve your heart out with a spork.

People are programmed with a natural instinct to be fearful of what is different. I've found that I have the reverse wiring in life, however based on experiences that I've had from such curiosity, I can not recommend it as a way to function.

Emotion is what we funnel life through, the Internet is often a platform for those who don't handle them well. While I was using it as a way to sort myself and potentially share my talents (my "reverse wiring" again) I found others used it as a way to subject themselves or their selfish desires upon others. This is true in real life, but the Internet makes it even easier to misrepresent oneself and give a very false sense of control to those who feel they lack that feeling in real life.

Yaoi is an expression of female sexuality in a world that represses women a great deal. Wether or not the character would be "gay" is practically irrelevant.

Fantasies themselves, do not need to make logical sense or they wouldn't be "fantasies" with which we could satisfy complex desires. Lack of understanding in this knowledge is what is truly dangerous. I have found the most absurd contradiction in people who get turned on by "this" (whatever it is) but squicked by "that". Even I am a contradiction, however, I am able to acknowledge and analyze why that is; I'm not in denial.

Sometimes leading by example is the best one can do, in this world, it is enough to simply be a good person -- that alone is difficult enough but at the same time...can make such a great difference.

Different things work for different people, I usually can't predict when creativity will bubble out of me nor can I always control its form. Do what works for you, there are so many ways we can express ourselves and escape in ways that don't deliberately take advantage or hurt others -- if we choose to.

That's OK, I used to be quite the ramber in my day and you seem to bringing that out.

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はじめまして! _{Artist, Writer/Poet, Photographer, traditional medium mostly, anime, sci-fi and the bizarre.}

I somewhat understand your statements, and I do agree as well. I'm not scared of the 'weird/unnaturalness' of the people of modern society, because I know that everyone is different and that they'll basically do everything they please. I must say that I am quite the curious cat that likes to learn and discover new things about the 'out of norm'.

True, true, it doesn't matter if the male is 'gay' or not, because someone will end up pairing him with another guy....which, I have done...alot. But I don't regret doing it, -sweatdrop- Sometimes in the 'real world' I don't understand all the hatred/fear of people, personally homosexuals. -sigh- But I shall not discuss it further I guess...

Squicked is a funny word, it means something like 'turn off', right?

What are your areas of talent in? I enjoy doing pen & ink and watercolor...

I would never deliberately hurt others, because that would be like stabbing myself in the eye or something. Like my mind would never want me to hurt someone else...even if it seems that is what I want to do.

Is it a good or bad thing that I bring out the ramber in you? ^_^u

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I will carve your heart out with a spork.

Deliberate weirdness is annoying and likely to lead to folly, but truly unique characteristics lead to interesting things. I am uncomfortable with the mundane and homogeneity. It's one reason that malls tend to freak me out.

Yaoi and homosexuality are separate subjects which overlap in small ways but are two different things. One would have to go in-depth into the issues of culture/gender/religion/psychology to fully explain why it upsets some either in a fantasy genre aimed at women and/or in the real world. Not that I'm unwilling to discuss the matter further but perhaps in a different forum or time.

Generally though, I'd love to see women advocate their own equal rights and talents, not to mention lesbian culture, as readily as they would wave a flag for homosexual or transgender men based on the pleasure (or kink) of a media. Teasingly, I'd have to say this is rather like Howard Stern leading a parade for "the rights" of lipstick lesbians. _{And I do like Howard Stern too.}

Hahaha, I remember when I didn't know what that word meant. Yes, it means it completely turns you off. I think it's rather like a car running down a road, it's engine gets going and then squick it sees something awful and disgusting and needs to veer off immediately while attempting not to spin out of control. For example: incest, shota, violence, hermaphrodites, explicit sex, etc. Although one person's squick is another person's kink or wank.

Areas of talent? Darned if I know. I suppose my gallery is the best judge of that. I like using many mediums but I've yet to truly try my hand at digital.

I think...at this time, I needed some stimulation so I thank you for being a level-headed person to have a meaningful discussion with. This is often in short supply on the 'Net.

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はじめまして! _{Artist, Writer/Poet, Photographer, traditional medium mostly, anime, sci-fi and the bizarre.}

I agree with you when you say that 'deliberate weirdness is annoying'. It's creepy really...but I tend to think, depending on what exactly is wierd, that it's cool...in an odd way. The simplicity and conformity of a lot of people bothers me, like in school, they're are certain people who always dress and act the same, blah blah blah.....It's stupid, but I guess that's how they survive...being clones.

I am interested in Psychology... I would like to learn how the brain functions...social behaviors, and the like.
It shall be interesting, but yes, perhaps another time and place.

Even now, in modern day, women are treated less equal to men...but it has improved over the years, correct? yet, the treatment of women can be improved even more if we just try...but that depends on the people that actually want to help.

Depending on the pairings....I like shota, incest, I love fantasy violence... XD I like the term 'wank', it makes me giggle.

I have enjoyed our discussions a fair deal, and you area very good person to talk and reason with. ^_^

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I will carve your heart out with a spork.

Psychology is a wonderful and large subject, lots of fields. I do recommend it. People actually confuse me so much that I've accidently become a keen observer of them in order to anticipate how to avoid strife and mimic function when interacting. I'm good at it at this point but it's exhausting and I do have my boundaries which seem small to me but gigantic to others (thus generally irritating them in time). Basically, I will not sell a piece of my soul for acceptance although I'm perfectly willing to be polite and take an interest in subjects generally not within my realms of concern. I usually also find that I have to withhold a great deal around them - my physical strength/manner and unconventional way of thinking usually scares or intimidates others. Of course, it also sometimes turns people on, but that is less common. I understand that most would prefer me to conform and I'm not going to anymore (that lead to deep unhappiness) but I do go out of my way not to deliberately annoy. I'm not "different" on purpose. Yes, being a "clone" would be considerably easier but nearly all aspects of my person belay ordinary. In other words, I'm screwed.

Society, in a short time, has seen a drastic change in the role of women. I think society is still scrambling to adjust and I think it's still perfectly fine for women to embrace traditional roles. The idea was to allow women more freedom of choice not to force them into careers; the predominance of the latter without balance in the roles of men equally changing to suit is causing great strife in the modern world lately. I still see women still "worshipping" men (real or fictional) rather than embracing their own sexuality, frequently even to the insult of their bodies, each other and natural bodily functions that perpetuate the human race. I am patient with this, praying for an evolution of mind-set but too often it does not occur and instead seems to lead to further confusion and self-hate. This saddens me deeply, especially as a pioneer of the "yaoi" genre in anime culture, partly done by me to empower women as creators and people as well as broaden the spectrum of sexuality. The worship of yaoi to the exclusion of other forms of sexuality as well as the ignorance (natural or deliberate) of TRUE gay culture defeats that original goal entirely. In simple terms, it's the same as straight people insisting on only their stories being told -- no different. I think this point has been greatly lost and perhaps someone like me needs to step up to the plate, once again, and expand horizons; clarify reality from fantasy, healthy from destructive.

I agree, like you, I'm open to LOTS of story and plot-line ideas, the taboo is particularly interesting to me; fantasy allowing a comfortable forum to explore it.

Thank you. Back at ya and you have a WONDERFUL new year!!

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はじめまして! _{Artist, Writer/Poet, Photographer, traditional medium mostly, anime, sci-fi and the bizarre.}

I won't change myself just for others' happiness, that's just stupid. But when dealing with family it's different. I tend to hide personal issues about myself from them, which I know I shouldn't but I do anyways. The people I have been around have acted the same basically since I've known them. So, I've learned that, with most, just to ignore them. That may sound bad, I do what they do to me, so it doesn't cause them a problem.

If you're screwed then I am too! I can't help it that others think of me as wierd among other, harsher things...

I guess that if women continue their actions of gaining their place in the work place, and men finally understand that women can do things that men can, we'd be on a roll! That final thought process may lead to bigger and better things for women.

Sometimes I wish that fantasy was reality, so the other harsher things in life will disappear...maybe. Yet I highly doubt it, but sometimes a mental vacation is needed to get away from stress.

Have a Happy New Year yourself!

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I will carve your heart out with a spork.