Thank you so much for sharing that. I almost never dream about real people, but in the past he's shown up in two dreams that I can recall. We had a very good time hanging out together.

It's so wonderful that you prayed for him and I never thought about the phrase, "Waiting for all his fans to join him." Wow. That would be worth it (the natural way of course); I get choked up at the idea.

I have heard it all.

But I will tell you, it was reading about the true character of the man that turned me into the fan that I am today. For I did have doubts from the media, for I was willing to accept the possibility. I read. And read. I understand so much about him, his family, the media, laws and how everything occurred. Initially furious at the truth under the scandals, I allowed myself to become a voice piece to fact -- a calm and intelligent force one must be for so many lies are told, often for money. My own woes, which pain me deeply, seemed so small in comparison. How did he continue? Ever trust anyone...? I surely would have gone mad and begun killing people or myself. He didn't.

Listen to the music. Watch the videos and performances. Your mother too. He is there, his message is simple but I wasn't ready to hear it when I was younger. Who speaks for the children now? What do they learn today? What of world peace? Racial harmony? Realize how truly dangerous and powerful this person became.

We idolize those who broadcast no morals, responsibility or thought to the world as a whole. Who is disgusting? Who? Yet I don't hate these new, odd failures of celebrities but I did...expect so much more. Why doesn't anyone else.

One should ask one's self where information comes from. Who wrote an article? Who is a source? And understand this person's life and upbringing from the poorest, blackest parts of the south. Be aware that this person faced tremendous racism which continues to linger. That's not an exaggeration, jokes or not, one can not "buy
white" and more than complexion makes us who we are.

Although his heart is apparent, like myself, there are pieces that are forever to remain hidden. It is that mystery I think which makes other fearful and assume the worst -- I am hated and misunderstood for this sometimes too. Interestingly, "Michael" was another choice in what my mother might have named me (never mind the female ones ).

I wanted to give up so badly. I still do at times. For him, shall I speak, bother anymore with words that seem like so much wasted effort. Mr. Jackson gave me hope just by being himself.

This is not to say that I don't see him as perfect, I don't need to. And all one need do to repay him is absorb his lessons and messages and pass them on. He wouldn't want anyone to die for him. He'd want you to live
and help others do the same.

I may be disgusting, but not this person is not.

The Magic and The Madness: sites sources, met him and family in person over a period of years. Balanced book of compliments and concerns.

Moonwalker: His autobiography

Redemption: Specific, legal facts by the prosecution of the first case.

The King of Pop's Darkest Hour: also specific but more personal from the other side of the case.

Dancing the Dream: A collection of his thoughts and poetry, speaks even louder than the autobiography.

I also read all of the negative and understand who those authors are and what their ulterior motives were. Instead, these are the books I'd recommend to anyone curious. I even understand a great deal about criminals and people who are truly capable of what Michael was accused of.

My habit in life is to adopt research projects, when I started this, that's all I intended. I didn't expect to find a hero in the process.